Split Infinitive

Split Infinitive

Epilogue to the Shock 

On the night he died

I barely cried

As though none of it was real

Arms broken by steel

Till he could no longer feel

But my heart is still here

To quietly live

Split infinitive

I was whole before we met

But one drive was all it took

A piece of me I held so dear

Captured by the rook

He reminds me everyday

Of my sanity astray

As his ghost haunts my life

He hunts my strife

So the hole he left, I fill with the unholy

Acts of intoxication and carnality

The smoke takes my air

The coke takes my cares

The whiskey on my breath

Only pushes me towards death

I can’t keep him, but I can’t let him go

I’m sleeping with an angel

This relationship is harder than most

I fell for a man, I’m dating a ghost

But his spirit can never give me back

What his body took that I now lack

I’m losing my grip, it must be a dream

I want to wake up, I thrash, I scream

But nothing changes and I’m still lost

In over my head, and all with what cost

And while I try to set myself free

He continues to love, unconditionally

Because in that night, he’s the one that survived

While a part of me split and then silently died